... in response to Kevin, posted by Lori on Aug 28, 2001


What a coincidence!  I haven't posted in a while, but I cracked a pun under one of Dave H20's post.

To tell you the truth, it was my intent to not post for awhile.  I had enough of being insulted when I was at a low point and deemed it best to not enable anybody to rub it in.  Most of all, my blood boiled when somebody (I'd rather not cite names) called me a troll.

Well, readers can take it or leave it.  I'm back to corresponding with Analyn.  I think a misunderstanding has been resolved, and it did break my heart to think that she was heartbroken.  I just have to take it one day at a time.  Part of my is scared too that I might have been taken in for the fool for breaking down or giving in.  But at least I'm aware that that is a possibility, and if I have to, will walk away from it alive.  Well, I hated to throw away something genuinely beautiful.

In sum, it was one of two possibilities.  The first possibility was that she truly cared for me and was very hurt about the whole situation and wanted to make amends.  The second possibility was that she almost lost a big fish that she had on a line and was playing my emotions like a fisherman lures his game reeling the lure slowly, letting the fish bite, reeling faster when he thinks the fish has bitten, losing the fish, trying to get the fish back by stalling, and if lucky enough for another bite, preferably enough to embed the hooks, reeling in the prized fish to shore.

Well I don't know what else to say at the moment.  It's not easy.

- Kevin

... in response to Re: Kevin, posted by kevin on Aug 28, 2001

Hi Kevin;
Many of us have gone through much of what you have described. Only words of advice I can give is don't let the b******* wear you down. Some of the posters tend to believe that because they see the world through rosy colored glasses at present, that if you have a problem it is your own doing. That is not always the truth of the matter.

I'm glad to hear you are back to corresponding with Analyn (I think:) It sounds as though you are proceeding cautiously, as it should be. Keep an open mind, your heart in your pocket for now, and peace be with you.

Most of all, look out for #1, you.

Best wishes.

Larry.

... in response to Re: Kevin, posted by kevin on Aug 28, 2001

I know it's hard to trust after being burned like you have. I also understand where humble man comes from in his posts. And I must say to those who have judged your negative views that they should look in the mirror. How do they feel about AW's they have been burned by. There's no differance.
But anyway, I think your mind will be more at ease after you actually meet her face to face. You will know more then. I think it's great that you gave her a second chance. But at the same time, I would not put all my happiness into her. You are a great guy Kevin. You know how to love and how to give. You deserve the best that life can give you. And right now I think the best is to be totally true to yourself. I know it is easier said than done.
Gosh, now I'M the one preaching.....good luck to you Kev!!! you deserve it!!!