To my wifes friends

[Pete E]

This was part of a post below but I wanted to be sure you saw it.

To my wifes friends that read this,I know you are loyal to her but I would like your imput.I'm not angry about it.I have nothing to hide except sometimes I would open my mouth and Rocio would be angry And I think I should not have said anything.But the cover up is over.I am guessing who is relaying things to her and the only person I know that I think reads the list is Liliana.Liliana,you seem like a level headed reasonable person.What do you think?Its also interesting,if I hadn't met Rocio you would not have met Mike.Strange sometimes how our lives are woven together.Kind of a fall out from me getting on a plane and all our lives are changed.Life is an interesting dynamic experience that we create as we go,effecting a wide range of people whoe's lives we touch.

Pete
peiguren@aol.com

[JSlo]

... in response to To my wifes friends, posted by Pete E on Oct 1, 2003

A man that can look inside himself and reveal his deepest feelings at a time of loss (likened to the death of a loved one) has my deepest respect. I wish you the best and implore you again to follow your own advice to another. Don't waste too much time feeling sorry for yourself. You have a lot of positive energy directed towards you, don't miss out on it.
Reminds me of the 'a reason, a season, and for life' line of thought.
Keep yourself well,
JSlo

[Pete E]

... in response to Re: To my wifes friends, posted by JSlo on Oct 1, 2003

Thanks,
I'm not feeling sorry for myself.It feels good to admit the truth.Its the denial and the lies that are hard to take,that drive me crazy,get me screaming angry.
When we ended it with the counsoler,like we have nothing to work with here,I was feeling big about it when the truth was finally admitted with the counsoler.It was a relief just face the truth,even is not what I would have liked.But I knew it anyway.It felt good just dumping the bullsh!t lies and denial.I said,and I feel now,that people come and go in our lives.Sometimes its for a temporary purpose.Some times we give,sometimes we recieve.Sometimes we are able to help someone and it costs us little,sometimes alot.
The song I was thinking of was Turn,Turn,Turn," a time for every season under heaven."2 months before my fiance died 18 years ago her  friend died of cancer.They sang it at her funeral.When My fiance unexpectedly died,20 miniutes before we were to be married  (heart failure,mitral valve prolapse,sometimes the first sign is sudden death.I think the excitement brought it on)) ,I had the same people come and sing it at her funeral.My mother died the next day.I have had lots of people die in my life including my father at 16.I have gone broke and bankrupt in business and lost every thing I had.I always do good with the big stuff.Its little stuff like not admitting lies that drive me crazy and can get me very angry.I Can take a spiritual viewpoint about the big stuff.My spiritual view is not traditional religion.But if we,our soul never dies then what is our purpose?Life is a never ending lesson.Some of them are harder than others.Our purpose is to love and to learn.This is what people who have had near death experiences tell us.
I have been lucky enough and selfish enough in my life.It doesn't have to hurt me to give,even if in strange unconventional ways.
For whatever reason this is what I did.I should at least get the lesson from it.
A time for every purpose under heaven.

Pete

[Bubba]

... in response to To my wifes friends, posted by Pete E on Oct 1, 2003

Pete, I know your wife doesn't like the posting but this is also documentation you can use in the end.  It might come in handy down the road in a he said, she said. You can print it out and say "Look here, this is what I said on this date". You never know it may come in VERY handy. Best of luck closing things out and moving on.