Seriously guys, how do you feel? LOL Don't hold anything back, please! LOL
Thanks for all of the good advice. I'm not exactly sure what I will do, but I will let ya know. I promise :c) Right now I am leaning toward the "ignorance is bliss" approach. Tim makes a good point as always, but then again, all of you have good points. Really you do.
I really hope you guys don't think that I sit around all day a bemoan my fate. My future looks great, my past just won't go away as fast as I would like. I share my thoughts, when I have them :c), here because you guys are my friends. I said I would, so I have. I also get a ton of lurker e-mail asking questions. Like I have said before, if I can help one person--American Male or Filipina--avoid what Ayesa and I have had to go through, then it will make it all alot easier to take. No, I'm not up for Sainthood... Life deals ya Lemons, make a Jack and Coke with LEMON :c) LOL
I guess my motivation is mainly my need to be understood. I am speaking about the letter issue here. I really don't care if her parents are worried. Not anymore. At one time I foolishly put the needs of her family ahead of my own. Not anymore! Really the only reason I would write the letter now, is to plead my case. It would really just be me satisfying myself and letting them know that I did everything I could and got NO help from their daughter. Now that I have had time to reflect, I see how lame that is. Besides, the thought of her parents gaining anything more at my expense is unthinkable. The knowledge of what is going on, no matter what it is, is worth more to them than any relief I would get from going over it again, trying to clear my name. What do I care if I am not welcome in a small village in Southern Leyte? The answer? I don't. I am passed that. Their liking me has done nothing good for anyone I care about, maybe it's better that they don't anymore :c) The thought of being the conduit through which they can reach their daughter just makes me irriated. Thanks to whomever raised that point. I totally missed that one!
Deportation? Holy Smokes! Hey... I have a rope in the basement. It's already tied in a noose--looooooong story :c) LOL--maybe we could just hang her from a tree in the backyard! Better yet from the Joe Louis Fist--that points at Canada, I always find that amusing :c)--on Jefferson Ave! Remind me NOT to piss some of you guys off! LOL
Seriously, I don't think I could deport her if I wanted to. But, it's not an issue. Brian and Bear are right. She doesn't want to be here, so she will go home of her own free will. I never even considered it, but mostly because I know she wants to go home. She wants to live in Manila, probably Tondo and be with her friends. Yes, some of them are male, but none of them are boyfriends. Trust me, I could've gotten behind, "I love another..." MUCH easier than everything she laid on me. And no, I don't think she just left that little detail out to spare me. She has never done anything to spare my feelings, why would she start now? LOL
Thank you all for your passionate responses! I appreciate the fact that you all care, you're a good group people!
As Always I WILL keep you in the loop. The Annulment Hearing is set for April 17th. Wish me luck!
Keep the Faith
H
