Hmmm where do I start Your NOT' In my Shoes~

[MArkUSA]

Ok friends ...

I have read Every post over the last week and there were alot of good posts that people took time to express there thoughts about my situation.. And I thank you ..

No my response ..

Alot has happened over the last weeks but I will express my feelings the best I may with WORDS(hard to always do as Ray or Jeff previously stated)
BrianN DonJ Bear Thank you for the WARNINGS and I have taken them to heed ..
But I must tell you some of te things were a little drastically stated and I fill inccorrect .. but I wont go there as not to offend anyone ..

Now as to Michelles death .. yes I grieve inside and feel sadness ..
But I ve never even met her physically which is what it takes to come to a conclusion that this person you have been writing is what you want in your life ..
You know the gaze into the eyes , that touch from your love that sends tingles down your spine , well you get the idea..
But I will say if I was afforded these things THEN I REally would be a bucket of tears ,,
But I was not afforded this opportunity..
The opportunty to know that what I was writing and thinking were indeed a fact and that my heart aalso felt the same way..

Well there are so many angles to this and we could go on and on ..
But I am not here for that I was just looking for help and I thank all for ther opinoins Good or Bad!
And I want to give special thanks to Don2222 Ray JeffS
You guys have helped me to come to many conclusions with your upbeat thoughts and concerns..
And Ray you dfinately had a impact on my thoughts with the statements you made below in your original response..
Ok Update:

well I have talked to Aunt Fran(18yrs Usa) and funny thing happened ..
She was talking to her husband and he brought up  thought of Why? not intoduce Mark to one of cousins.. Then I calld her and she brought it up and I said that was exactly what I was thinking also ..
Well fran called Cebu and was talking to Aunt Albina and here Her and Michelles cousin (who was ther everytime Michelle chat and phone etc )
Justina were thinking along the same lines ..
Well I have talked to Justina before when I called Michelle and so I agrred to start corressponding with her and we have been talking on the phone etc..
She is very sweet and We can talk about Michelle and we see it that Michelle would have it no other way and would bless OUR unity if it is to be ..

Now I previously wrote a post that was very imformative about all this but the system crashed.. and I am not one to pour my heart out and lose those thoughts and again be able to express them all over in words once more ..

You know guys YA! there is alot to look out for when you are involved in situations like our's..
But hey I NO! the family I am involved with IS' good people ..
They have NEVER asked me for money as matter fact turn me down when I offer it.. They have welcomed me into there home ..
Aunt Fran calls regular(expense her own) So many things That if You where in my shoes you would see as clearly as I do ..
So I am off Feb18th to go to Cebu and I will meet Justina and I will get to no her and she is taking me to Michelles Gravesite and I will meet Michelle Mother and family and all along Justina (Michelles best friend , sleeping partner , cousin, and classmate etc.) will be ther right beside me ... What happens does is all I say ..

Now Aunt Fran might even be going to Cebu also at the same time for she would like to take her 80yr mother back ..(they have not been back since 1980's)
As JeffS or Ray  stated it really is about the people (family)
Believe me if I had one serious doubt in my mind I wouldnt go ..

But hey this is a adventure of a lifetime for me and I am going ..
What maybe will be !

I will take all the advice and use it to help make many decisions or none at all..

Hey scuba diving relax and maybe finding love in Justina are my plans at the moment ..

and I have a few #s in my backpocket also ..(doubt I will need since Tina is so sweet)

Ok ! I think I have babbled enough and I am sure there is something else I wanted to say or respond to but I have to call Justina and see how she is today ..

You also have a great day my friends and I will keep you updated:

Thanx all and take care
God Bless

MArkUSA

[Don J]

... in response to Hmmm where do I start Your NOT' In my Sh..., posted by MArkUSA on Jan 9, 2002

Mark:

First off, if I offended you by my comments I apologize, you are absolutely correct in that your situation is not mine and who knows how I would have handled the same happening to me. I am happy to hear that you will have people there to make your trip enjoyable and hope you have a wonderful time.

Some of my comments are based on individuals that I met on my trips to Cebu who had gone there on their own through agencies that painted a very pretty picture of sand beaches lined with beautiful girls just waiting for a guy to pick them to be their companion. Well, 2 of the guys I met were leaving after only 3 or 4 days of a 10 to 14 day planned trip, because the beach resort they were promised turned out to be a Pension house deep in the City located near the bikini bars, and, where there certainly are girls lined up looking for companions at least for the night. Now this may actually be just what some people are looking for on a trip to the RP and they will have a great time, more power to them. But obviously some guys go there with dreams and aspirations to find a loving caring person to spend their life with I believe you fall in this category and I guess the point I was trying to make is that having someone there to show you around is helpful. Seeing children begging in the streets for a few peso's or cab drivers offering to hook you up with girls are part of the real experience of the Philippines, poverty and street crimes happen back home as well and I guess I was just trying to relay the existence of this to all who care to know of it and suggest that someone to walk you through it can make your trip more enjoyable. I believe you have your bases covered with the family you are going to meet and hope you find happiness there.

Again if my choice of words have offended you, I apologize and I hope you find all that your heart desires on your trip.

Peace be with you!
Don J