Unfortunately, these next few installments may not be the Chronicles that many of the old timers remember. I don't know that I have the wit in me to make everything seem humerous in the face of tragedy. I don't mean to be melodramitic, but considering what we all hope to gain from these drastic, often desperate, measures, tragic is the only word that comes to mind when asked to sum up recent events. Four years in the making, that's right newbies, FOUR years!, this is not the end to the Howard Chronicles, but nearly the end. Maybe there's a new begining in here somewhere, but than again maybe not.
I have questions that will probably never be answered, but less of them thanks to the efforts of one man, with the help and support of his devoted wife, who refused to sit idle when they thought they could make a difference. I may never be able to properly thank them, but wanted to start by trying to help others understand my situation.
Hopefully, I will understand it better with time. Hopefully, putting it down on paper will help me purge the demons that haunt, but do not consume me. If nothing else maybe I can find a happy medium between those who have put all of the burden to communicate on me and those who would suggest I divorce my wife for not starching my collars correctly. Oooops, a little humor slipped in :c)
Seriously though, there are two extremes and I see points on both of their sides. Some worried that I was giving up too easily and some felt I waited too long. I have people I consider friends on both sides of the fence and agree and disagree with points either way. My purpose is to share my personal expiriences, the good and bad, and to figure out how to proceed with my life. Input is always appreciated and encouraged, but ultimately I will make my own decisions based upon all of the information, advice, support and lessons I have and will receive.
Mine, like many of yours, has been a very public story. I think it's time I continue. Please bear with me while I try to find some direction in my posts, I'm not nearly as prepared for the sequel and I was to the original.
Let the new Chronicles Begin!
H