I wonder if you're not subconciously setting yourself up for some kind of beating in some sort of odd manner, to atone for things in your past, but I don't think you deserve the kind of shellacking you're probably setting yourself up for.
Laughed so hard, I spit out my coffee! SHELLACKING:)
Actually, I am taking all the advice above. 5 years ago, a Romanian girl had a similar, but not as powerful, affect on me. It caused me to go through a serious re-invention. Some men think such talk is BS. In my case, I know change is possible, powerful, and one of our greatest abilities.
In Ukraine, I saw / felt something in me that was not right (or maybe was right - I still have not completely decided). But, it was enough for me to ring the "time-out" buzzer. Why is it that I can float around most of the world without getting phased, and these EE / RW seem to have my combination? Is there something I see, want, need, that is unique in these women?
Let's face it, I am dealing, going to be dealing with a 15 - 20 year age gap with a damn beautiful woman one way, or the other. That, in itself brings challenges. A word on age: I will not live full time in the USA. Several years ago, I was worried to death about my age, time, my mortality. I don't care so much about that any longer. I am happy to still be in the game with as much force as I have. If I can't reverse the clock at least 10 years with care, diet, and the help of modern medicine, what's all the hype about? So, yep! I am 38 years old FT.
The EE / RW seem MUCH more challenging; with MUCH greater inner value/ self esteem. The best Latinas and EE women do have a problem with trusting a man after an age (22 - 24) ... they all seem to keep a healthy amount of thoughts to themselves. AND, at the end of the day, is the idea of a "young love" misapplied to men after divorce / the age of 40? AND, after the age of 40, is it necessary to want SO MUCH in one woman (wife, mother, friend, lover, etc...)? Seems a little naive - or, only existing in the rarest of cases.
(Funny, I remember thinking to myself when I was in Ukraine. What the F*&^* am I doing?!?! I was perfectly happy before this. She has "train wreck" written all over her. Like a siren from a Greek tragedy. Oh! I was not a lap dog with her either ... but, still, it was not a perfect story book connection. There is a story here that is unknown, and I have a sense that it does not fit into a normal narrative - ie. she is a scammer; has boyfriend, etc..)
In any case, I have at least 2 months of 24 / 7 work / work out / diet / and getting my head straight. At the other end of all this, I will be setting up shop in Punta Cana / Santa Dominigo DR for a couple years. I am sure I can zip to Colombia, or Ukraine often, if that is what I desire. Living in the DR, I can avoid the complications with immigration issues. And, I give myself base.
Zon is in dry dock.
